Memory Fragmentation and stages of becoming conscious

This is a topic that I speak about often - the stages of becoming conscious. What does it mean to become conscious? What happens to our minds when we begin to realize that most of what we are taught is caught up in systems and programs? Our minds are an integral part of our awakening as we navigate true consciousness.

Did you know that the first language you learn to speak is that of your parents? As children we carry the programming of our parents and learn to live like they do, think like they do, until we mature enough to become critical thinkers for ourselves.

We adopt behaviors, beliefs and systems that our parents have. That is why so many today are healers, conscious coaches and rule breakers, as they learn to authenticate themselves to their own blueprints. It's about breaking down what is yours and what it isn't and creating a journey that is unique to you but also woven into the fabrics of your ancestry.

Both are of utmost importance. Carrying lineages is incredibly important, but to know that it is uniquely your own traits that carry that torch forward is a gift.

As we awaken to the truth within ourselves and consciousness develops, we often fall into strange symptoms. These symptoms can last for years and even decades, ebbing and flowing as your consciousness becomes more aware of truth vs. deception and you awaken out of controlled systems that keep your mind asleep and your consciousness stuck in cyclic patterns.

Consciousness is about awareness. Awareness of spiritual truth, of nature, of connection and of inner faith and trust. It is unique to each of us and just like a fingerprint, there is never any two the same.

Being a naturally born channel, I frequently grapple with my gifts. It has been a lengthy and often challenging journey of attempting to fit in and be normal, only to realize that this will never be my path. Instead, I strive to leave something positive behind in every room I enter. I observe, I listen, I connect with nature and spirit, and I work tirelessly on my own healing.

Owning a conscious living company is the right path for me, because I get to be all the things that make me uniquely myself. But the truth is that people don’t see the often messy, painful and challenging parts of being intuitive. They don’t realize the work that it takes to keep my energy clear, strong and to balance work, life and family. It's important to normalize these conversations, extract the "woo" and make them real. We just don't have time to be afraid of what we don't understand. This world is becoming conscious at a fast rate, and we are being asked to get on board.

Rest is key to conscious integration

MEMORY LAPSES

For years I struggled with memory lapses, brain fog, joint pains, even bouts of depression as my body, mind and spirit learned to integrate, adapt and move towards deeper consciousness. I was labeled with so many things - from fibromyalgia to chronic fatigue syndrome, to even one Doctor suggesting I had Multiple Sclerosis (which luckily was untrue).

I walked the walk between Western Medicine and the Holistic world and learned to appreciate both in balance. The greatest lesson is to trust myself and my intuition. I let that lead me through everything.

TRAUMA

I was raised in an abusive household, where the language that was spoken was often loud and angry. I would hide amongst my pillows and blankets, immersing myself in books and art and music, until I could feel safe enough to emerge again. It became a refuge for me. I prayed a lot. I spoke to the empty silence in my room and then something strange started to happen. I was getting answers in my head - guidance that once I learned to follow, started to shape my life and change my life. That was when I learned about real magic - not the kind you read about in books, but a connection to something that often cannot be taught, and it was extraordinary. I leaned in. I learned. Of course, being a young child at the time, I thought everyone was like me. I quickly learned that wasn't true. It was on that day, the day I realized that I was different, that everything changed. (More on that in future posts)

We know that trauma impacts the brain, but so do increases in cortisol and the way the mind operates when genuine consciousness and spiritual connection are present. At night, I would see lights of all colors in my bedroom and always felt that I was somehow enveloped by something beyond my understanding that kept me safe. This experience is a significant part of my story and remains a constant presence in my life even today.

For years, I have listened to women on a spiritual journey discuss experiences like amnesia, memory lapses, fatigue, dizziness, and confusion. Often, these can be attributed to medical issues, household toxins, environmental exposures, and similar factors. However, what is less frequently addressed is the transformation that occurs as one expands in consciousness, involving a deeper spiritual phenomenon.

I talk to women all week long about transformation and natural beauty and health and wellness and spirituality. I go to these places of awareness because it is an actual part of transformation that is occurring! It comes with all the symptoms, and it can be scary, confusing and often isolating - but also like a butterfly leaving its cocoon, the most beautiful of experiences.

Even in my late 40’s now, I experience these symptoms. Some may title it a variety of ways as labeling makes others feel safer and it isn’t always true for the person being labeled.

I refer to it simply as consciousness. Achieving consciousness requires us to invest everything we have in making conscious changes in our lives, being ready to make difficult decisions, learning to love ourselves unconditionally, and creating a personal space that feels safe, grounded, connected, and welcoming. Establishing these boundaries and sticking to them is a task in itself.

Many people won't grasp what you're experiencing. They might mock you, overwhelm you with countless possibilities, and leave you feeling even more confused. However, if you take a moment to sit with yourself and your truth, allowing yourself to surrender, something different can happen. We are often taught to "push through," disregard our symptoms, and construct a narrative around them, when in reality, there might be something magical attempting to align with you.

I'm writing this today for you. If you're a sensitive individual, an empath, a channel, someone striving for consciousness and genuinely engaging in inner work, then you might be experiencing these symptoms.

It may feel like too much. It may be mixed with other things, like anxiety, even post-partum for us momma’s (I went through that for ten years with my babies), both post-partum, healing from trauma and awakening more into my gifts. It was often a difficult journey that felt lonely. I sought answers, I joined communities. I even fell into spiritual traps with fake gurus and healers that "talked the talk" but were preying on those of us who didn’t know better. I also met great leaders, true healers, and teachers and that led me to becoming one myself.

My journey has been winding, intense, but also beautiful and blessed.

Nowadays, when I experience amnesia, I understand it's part of my integration process. I recognize that I'm evolving into who I am truly meant to be, rather than conforming to others' expectations. It's essential to remain authentic on our life journey. As spiritual seekers, we absorb a lot—reading books, listening to podcasts, attending groups, and participating in circles. However, not all this information is meant to become part of our story, which is why amnesia occurs. It's a natural cleansing of the mind, eliminating information that isn't meant for us, allowing us to retain what truly matters. In our digital age, there is even more "brain dumping," so we must be cautious about what we allow into our minds. Please exercise discernment with everything you read, believe, watch, and see.

Being human is challenging, and striving for true consciousness adds to the difficulty. However, the effort is worthwhile, as it leads to freedom. Accept the person you are evolving into. There is grace in letting go, and beauty awaits when you can confidently be yourself.

Written by blogger Danielle Federico

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